When I became a raider, you were there to welcome me with a smile. I was nervous about starting a new life, but you erased all those doubts with your confident "Welcome to the Ulgorn Raiders!"
I didn't know it then, but that was when I started to fall in love with you.
Why did I fall in love with you? Was it the way you stood alone by Tunapre Lake every night?
The way you took care of every raider and treated us all fairly and decently?
I don't know when it happened. One day I realized it, and from then on my hear pounded every time you smiled at me.
I remember last winter. It was a bitterly cold dry and you saw me shivering. You gave me the coat off your back.
I knew you only did it to keep me safe, but I wished you had done it because you loved me.
My heart was torn apart when I first saw you gaze longingly at that pendant--the one with the portrait of your late wife.
Do you still love her, even after all these years?
It took all my courage to smile at you and talk to you, once I knew the hopelessness of it all. But I knew that nothing I could do would make your pain go away.
I never really meant to write this letter. Consider it a final chapter--a way to write an ending to a love that will never begin.
Can I forget my love when I am reminded of it every day I fight alongside you?
I know I should. And one day, I will. Someday I'll see you as the boss, and only as the boss. Someday.
